So finally, years after its inception, I decided to foray into the blog-sphere... Why? Neither do I know and nor do I care. Perhaps I have exhausted all my "take-it-out-on-me" coupons. Perhaps I want to be heard, perhaps I need someone to listen to me, or maybe I'm hoping that my non-existential god-almighty will reach out from the heavens and shall deliver me the salvation and peace of mind that I have been craving for, for so long....
In my brief, so called existence among you people I have realized that every happens for a reason, however, most of the times we just don't like the reason. All the mistakes that I have made, all the "sins" that I have committed, all the pain that I have brought to others, has come back to me. Some people believe in god because they're afraid of the devil, some because they need someone to thank, and then there are people like me, who believe in his divine existence, for the soul purpose that we can hate him.
I didn't have the balls to admit that everything that is happening to me is because of all the stupid things that I have done. I didn't have the balls to own up my mistakes. A few days back an angel came down from heaven and she showed me that it was all my fault. I was so obsessed with finding others to blame (mostly god) that I had completely ignored the one and only culprit of my situation... Me...
So now that I have no one left to blame but myself, I don't need god anymore? Perhaps... At least that's one thing god and I have in common... We're both useless to one another.
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